"A Sustainable Environment without Sustainable People?" A Letter to Loyola University



Dear Loyola University Chicago,

I am writing you this letter because I left the University Senate meeting today feeling a bit bewildered by the conversations that took place. Particularly, I feel that every time we have a discussion on diversity in this body, the atmosphere becomes divisive. There is generally a sense in the air from certain members that we already do enough in this regard, and any suggestion to further diversity initiatives on campus becomes a hot issue of debate. This happened last year when we were discussing the need for a chief diversity officer and this year now in our discussion of a required course on diversity for undergraduate students.

Yet, my confusion really came to a head when the discussion on environmental sustainability began with little to no arguments against it. There was a sense of, “Absolutely, climate control is an important issue that all of our students, faculty, administrators, and staff should be aware of in order to continue our Jesuit mission.” Why is that? Why is it that we can discuss a sustainable planet with such calmness, and yet become so contentious when we’re discussing sustainable institutional practices for such a key issue as diversity?

Why do we not question a campus-wide discussion on climate control, but we have consistent rebuttals on diversity? Why does environmental sustainability seem to garner such support and enthusiasm from this body, but every diversity conversation seems bleak and heavy?

Today our presenter highlighted climate control as “necessary” for our students to go out and change the world. Why do we not have this same emphasis on matters of diversity and inclusion?

I thought perhaps these feelings were limited to the University Senate, until it was mentioned that all students are required to take a science course on environmental sustainability…and yet, at the mention of doing a required course on diversity, so many of the opinions expressed today suggested that it is unnecessary because diversity is talked about in a lot of the core courses anyway. This is where I was especially perplexed. Why is this? What message are we sending to our students and the world about what’s important to us? We can say that we are progressive because we are participating in a popular conversation that’s happening in the world about climate control. Yet, there’s little to no discussion happening campus-wide about minority teens being shot in the streets around the country, the hanging of a black man in Mississippi in 2015, the attack on Islam in this country, the video of young white Greeks proudly singing about n*ggers not being permitted into their fraternity, the debates across the country on same-sex marriage, the conversation that is still happening about wage inequality and gender discrimination…how can we sit back, or rest on our Jesuit name, without making a conscious effort, from the top down, from administrators to students, to say, “Hey, issues of diversity are important and necessary for us to discuss in order for our graduates to really go forth and set the world on fire?”

To this point, I feel that as a university, diversity is not clearly defined or clearly emphasized. In our public comments on climate control, one student mentioned with urgency that, “We need to be carbon neutral by a date. We want a firm commitment from this body on this issue.” I thought to myself, man, these students are speaking with such passion on this issue. And yet, I rarely hear such urgency, such direct resolve about issues of diversity here on campus. I believe the answer is more than just the need for a change in curriculum, but in the way we talk about diversity as an institution. For example, why does environmental awareness seem to permeate our university mindset (greener buildings, recycling, an office of sustainability, etc. which, in my opinion, are such visual things), but we leave diversity to linger on the outskirts, hoping that through a few public lectures or a belief that within our core curriculum, somewhere within any given course, diversity will be discussed in passing? This goes for diversity within staff and faculty as well. Diversity seems to be limited to an employee handbook or by the presence of a single minority faculty member within any given department.

I know that there is no direct way of answering these questions, but I did not want to let the moment pass by without voicing my frustrations about what I call “the diversity issue” that we have here on campus. Also, as a disclaimer, I am absolutely for the initiatives we are taking as an institution to create a more sustainable environment. I just hope that along with it, we are empowering sustainable people as well.

Thank you for your time and I hope you have a great weekend.

Best,
Pam


Movie Review: FOCUS

So, ya know how movies are a thing that I love and adore? Yeah, well I've been slacking on my movie posts! If you've been following me for a while, you probably know why I haven't had time for many movies. But, I'm getting back in the swing of things. And I figured what better way to jump back in than with a movie review?

My Honey Dip and I have a designated date night each week (attn lovers: GET YO LIFE and try to ensure that you don't forsake that quality time). This week, we decided to see Focus. If you don't know what it's about, here's the preview:


Here's the plot storyline from Internet Movie Database: "Nicky Spurgeon is an extremely accomplished con man who takes an amateur con artist, Jess, under his wing. Nicky and Jess become romantically involved, and with Nicky's profession of being a liar and a cheater for a living, he realizes that deception and love are things that don't go together. They split, only to see each other three years later... And things get messy."

Things get messy, indeed!


In an attempt to not give away spoilers, I'm just gonna highlight some things I enjoyed about Focus:

1) Will Smith.

2) The cast was incredibly diverse! This isn't a "black" or "white" or "Latin" or "Asian" film. Instead, the main cast ran the color spectrum and I appreciated that.

3) The movie was very tastefully done. From the clothing to the music, I felt like they really drew me in. I really appreciated the music choices because they put me in the mind of James Bond.

4) It was light and fun. And not like "Tower Heist" light and fun, but more like "Ocean's Eleven" light and fun. Nothing too over the top, but solid acting and an enjoyable plot with twists and surprises.

5) I loved the chemistry between Will Smith and Margot Robbie. She was just perfect for this role, showing raw emotion and vulnerability. And Will was the perfect balance for her, with his unpredictable attitude and approach to his character. It made for a really enjoyable movie relationship.


Now, here are some recommendations I have for you if you plan to see this film:

1) "Comparison is the thief of joy." Remember that. I know I mentioned Tower Heist and Ocean's Eleve, but this film really isn't like those. And if you go in expecting something like these films, you're setting yourself up for disappointment. Take the film for what it is: an enjoyable con-man movie.

2) Go with someone who likes to laugh. I swear yall, bae and I were cracking up laughing the whole time. But the rest of the theater was silent. It was like the other 10 people (we went for a matinee showing lol) were watching a different film from us. Why would you watch a movie like this if you don't want to have fun?

3) Have a drink (if you're over 21!) before or during the film. It makes it even more fun! Lol.

Overall rating: 7.5/10. Very enjoyable film. I had a lot of fun! Let me know if you plan to see it or what you're hoping to watch soon.

(PS - Click on the "movies" label below if you wanna see more movie posts from me! *cyber high five*)


What Will They Say? (The Truth Is...)

Life often teaches us to be silent. To keep our secrets tucked away in some seemingly safe place where no one has to see your scars or know your fears.

I've wrestled with God over my pain. In my many fights with Him, I have often asked Him, "Why?"

Why? Why me, God? Why have these things happened to me? Or around me? Why me? Why?

Well, He's never given me any definitive answer. His only clear response has been: "Because I need you to share your story. I need you to not be afraid to speak. You have seen darkness and you have survived."

"I need you to not be afraid because there are women out there...girls...My daughters who need to know that they are not alone. That there is hope. Your story will lead so many others out of silent fear. And I need you to not be afraid."

But, the truth is...I am afraid.

I'm afraid of backlash. What will people think? What will they say?

Will they tell me that I'm giving my ex a bad rap? That I'm dragging his name through the dirt? That I'm tainting his image? Will they say that I'm bringing down a good black man who's made "a few" mistakes? That it's not even my place to speak because so much of my story is his story?

What will they say? Will they ask the most painful question of all...the question that everyone asks when they hear my story, either from a place of love or from a place of ignorance..that question. The one that causes me shame, makes me feel guilt, makes me hate some part of myself...

The question...

Why did you stay?

Then, what will they say? Will they say that I'm a weak, insecure woman for staying with a man who treated me in such a way? Will they say I should've been stronger? Will they say, "If it were me, I would've left a long time ago!" Will they call me stupid? Will they call me crazy for remaining silent, allowing for 6 years to go past in darkness while simultaneously building a case for what looked like a perfect marriage on social media?

What will they say? Will they call me foolish for eating my way to well over 250 pounds because I couldn't see a way out? Can't they understand that I was just scared? That I was trapped? That I was hopeless? Or, will they say, "It's YOUR fault for not speaking up. It's YOUR fault what you've done to yourself."

And, what will they say? Will they call me a liar for the Facebook posts that put on the appearance of happiness? For the smiling photos of bliss? Will they be angry to know that they were there, watching me walk down the aisle at my wedding, when I knew that the groom's heart was never mine to hold? Will they say that I wasted their time?

Then, what will they say...what will they say when they see me happy and smiling now? Will they say it's not real? Will they say it's too soon, too risky for me to love another? Will they say it's not right? That I don't deserve to have moved on?

What will they say? What will they feel when they know the truth?

Truthfully...

The truth is...
I have seen darkness.
I've experienced things no wife, no girlfriend...hell, no friend should experience.
I have been alone.
I have hoped for death.

I have fought.
I have survived.
I have been brave.

And I have finally gotten a glimpse of me.
Me...
I have looked past the dirt and I have finally seen myself through God's eyes.
I can finally see pieces of who He's created me to be.

The truth is...
I can finally love.
I love Him.
I love me.
And I love a man who is head over heels in love with me, and yet who loves Him more.

The truth is...
There is still a call of God on my ex's life. I still believe it. God has created him for a purpose.
I'm just no longer a part of it.
It's up to him to accept God's call.

The truth is...
Just as God has a call on the life of my ex, He has a call on mine as well.

And the truth is...
I need to speak. I need to share this story.

But the truth is...I am afraid.

After all...what will they say?


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